I am Sheila, I am Lucky

                   Others might say that he is so lucky to have me. But let me correct them this time. He is not the one who is lucky to have me. I am the lucky one here, because even though there are person who is much greater than what I am he still choose me.

          He still choose to be with me even though I have an attitude problem.

          He still choose me even though I am a sort of insensitive.

          He still choose to be with me even though I keep on hurting his ego.

          He still choose to be with me even though he knew that my trust on him is not enough.

          He choose being with me behind those flaws and that made me the luckiest girl.

                   There's so much greater than I am.

              Someone who can make him laugh.

              Someone who can make him smile.

              Someone who can give their full trust upon him.

              Someone who can give love more than what I can give.

              But he is still with me and I am thankful.

                      He made so much efforts. Efforts that I do not know if I can give it back. Efforts that will forever stay in my heart.

                    I love him so much. I really do. I don't usually say "I love you" to him in front of many people. I do not hold his hand when many are watching. Sometimes it looks like I do not love him but the truth is I really do it's just that i don't know what to act and what to say every time he is near. I usually show him the stronger version of mine, the stubborn and "malditang" Sheila that is why some says i don't deserve him. Sometimes I feel like I don't deserve him but he choose to be with me and haters/insecure have nothing to do with it. We love each other and I bet it's enough.

The New Me with Him

                It's been two years since my last heartbreak.

                Pero ok na ako ngayon. Ok na ako kasama siya. Si Carl Francis Orio. Hindi ko siya tatawaging bago kasi hindi siya laruan. Let's just call him my last. Masyado pa kaming bata para isipin na kami na talaga hanggang sa huli pero masama bang pangarapin namin iyon? .. we've been in a relationship for more than a month now but it feels like forever.

               He's different from my ex's although i don't like comparing him to them because he is so different. I can feel the sincerity in his actions. He is like an angel sent from above to have that someone where I can spend the rest of my life with.


                Hi hubby .. hi my superman. Oo, may mga pagkakataong nagiging insensitive ako sa mga nararamdaman mo. At kung minsan ay napaka-moody ko. Pasensiya ka na huh. Pasensiya na kung nagseselos agad ako, naiinis kasi ako kapag ka may nakakapag-pangiti sa iyo na babae .. ewan ko ba! gusto ko kasi ako lang ahahaha .. pasensiya na. pasayloa ko hubby .. hahahahahaha .. Sa lahat ng mga kasalanan ko sa iyo na nagpasama ng loob mo sorry po. Mahal lang talaga kita ie. Pasensiya kung abnormal ako T_______T ..


               The promises that we said to each other..
               The hugs and that holding hands ..
               And my first kiss in the forehead ..
               All of those encourages me to spend the rest of my life with you ..

              Let's fight all the odds together. And we will never let go of each others hand.
       

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neoleul yeong-wonhi salanghae. yagsog hae.